The Good & the Bad

Posted on September 19, 2008 at 10:46 AM Comments comments (0)

The kittens are progressing nicely. I have found homes for three of the four.

This has been a pretty tough week, but I'll start with the good news. I've lost more weight! The total is 18! I can't believe it. That's just because my body is starting to process insulin the way it's supposed to. I haven't changed diet or activity levels yet. God bless Dr. Rittenberry!

I'm realizing that I've been angry with my father for a long time (he died when I was 2 1/2). I've been angry because he made choices that ultimately led to his death and leaving me. The loss of a parent has dire consequences for the children who are left behind, even when they're adults. I haven't allowed myself to be in any relationships, terrified that they would leave, so why risk it? That's no way to live, so I'm working on breaking from that. Whew!

Thank God for drugs!

Posted on August 27, 2008 at 5:03 PM Comments comments (0)

I think I've mentioned before that I have PCOS? Well, one of problems is "insulin resistance," which means that my body doesn't use insulin to create energy the way it's supposed to. Instead, everything I eat is turned into fat instead of energy. Yay. Anyway, I started seeing an endocrinologist about 6 months ago. She started me on the max amount of metformin, which is supposed to make me more insulin sensitive. I believe it's actually working. For the first time in 15+ years, I'm actually losing weight, instead of gaining. I can fit in some shirts now that I could never button before. I'm pretty excited. :)

Pile of Junk

Posted on July 29, 2008 at 1:00 PM Comments comments (0)

I'm the pile of junk. I'm only 33 and I feel like I've been falling apart for 20 years. Depression, anxiety, PCOS, migraines, gout (yes, that's right), heel spurs, arthritis, possible gall bladder surgery, carpul tunnel on both sides, etc. What am I, 95?! Now, I'm stressing about some family situations, my finances, etc. My stress always comes out physically, so I haven't been able to sleep for 2 weeks, and my stomach is in knots all the time. I think "Be still and know" should be my tatoo.

The Morning After Pill

Posted on March 31, 2008 at 2:42 PM Comments comments (0)

I'm re-posting a blog I wrote a while ago. It's still relavent, and it still pisses me off.



I'm riled up again. Recently, the Morning After Pill (MAP) has been made available for purchase over the counter (OTC) by anyone 18 and over. I have several problems with this. 


1) Many times a woman thinks she needs it and she's not even ovulating. Her chances for pregnancy are low enough without affecting her cycle needlessly with the MAP. In addition, even if the pill's taken within the first 24 hours after sex, it only lowers her chances of pregnancy by 89%. Each day after that, its effectiveness decreases. Also, the FDA and the manufacturer of the most widely used MAP (Plan B) have only approved it for use up to 3 days after sex. There are doctors that will prescribe it FIVE DAYS AFTER SEX! These women & girls are ingesting chemicals into their bodies that serve no purpose whatsoever other than to screw with their systems. 


2) The MAP has NOT been tested!!!! Barr Pharmaceuticals (Plan B's manufacturer) lists their "research results" on their website. All of their research was on the Progestin Only Pill (Pop's), which is a birth control pill, not emergency contraception. "Contraindications for Plan B: Progestin-only contraceptive pills (POPs) are used as a routine method of birth control over longer periods of time, and are contraindicated in some conditions. It is not known whether these same conditions apply to the Plan B regimen consisting of the emergency use of two progestin pills. POPs are not recommended for use in the following conditions: known or suspected pregnancy; hypersensitivity to any component of the product; and, undiagnosed abnormal genital bleeding." ( They haven't even research the MAP as an emergence contraceptive! 


3) I had to wonder why Planned Parenthood would be supportive of something that claims to lower the chance of pregnancy. After all, they make a profit from unwanted pregnancies. Then I found this: "Under a five-year agreement, Planned Parenthood would be able to buy Plan B from Barr at bargain-basement prices, undercut local pharmacies, and clear an average $20 profit on each Plan B kit? One of the documents is a February 9, 2004 e-mail from the PPFA vice president of medical affairs, Vanessa Cullins, M.D., to all Planned Parenthood affiliate CEOs. The executives were told that Planned Parenthood was "in the midst of confidential discussions" with Barr and that Planned Parenthood's "immediate interest is to develop and protect our market base." ?a product that Planned Parenthood purchases for less than $5 and sells for an average of $25? not only is Planned Parenthood making a huge profit, but because of the "special pricing" from Barr, it is able to undercut its competition. ( (Note: I have not yet confirmed the information from this article. I will do so, and invite any information from readers.) 


4) Where does it stop? It's already OK for the male to buy it. What's the big deal you say? Think about it: pedophiles & rapists would want to buy it before their atrocities. They might consider it a little insurance. Don't think it would happen? Pharmacists don't always check ID now when giving it out, and worse has already happened. It came out in the news recently that registered sex offenders had not only been prescribed Viagra, but had been able to fill the prescription! If something that heinous can happen, how much easier would be for them to buy something that doesn't require a prescription and for which ID isn't checked diligently? 


5) People treat hormone meds (i.e. Birth control & MAP) like they're no big deal, but they are real chemicals that have real consequences. "They're just hormones." Well, so are steroids, and they're illegal. Birth control can cause depression, anxiety, mood swings, headaches, cramps, nausea, weight gain, stroke, heart attack, and the list goes on. Do you ever hear about those things? Of course not. It's not just a simple thing to ingest these kinds of chemicals, but women do it without a second thought. It's ludicrous. 


6) The MAP works in one of three ways: a) it stops ovulation, b) it thickens the cervical fluid which stops sperm from getting to the egg, or c) it prevents a fertilized egg from implanting in the uterus. This last is an abortion if you believe that life begins at conception, which I do. I'm not ok with abortion as a form of birth control, so I'm not ok with this third possibility. Even the manufacturer can't predict which way it will function.





Posted on March 30, 2008 at 6:08 PM Comments comments (0)

It stands for Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. I have it, and it sucks. It really is a cluster of symptoms, so there's no way to treat an underlying "cause", just the symptoms. It's a complex hormone disorder that causes such symptoms as irregular menstrual cycles, infertility, excessive body hair, acne, depression, insulin resistence, obesity, etc. It's named for the tiny cysts that may form in the ovaries when the hormone imbalance interrupts the ovulation process. If the hormone imbalance is left untreated, the syndrome may lead to life-threatening illnesses such as diabetes, heart disease, stroke, and uterine and endometrial cancers. The worst part for me is the weight gain. Whether I eat crap and don't exersize or eat perfectly and exersize like a maniac, I still gain weight. I saw endocrinologists (hormone docs) from the age of 4-19. I just started seeing one again recently because I can't take the weight gain anymore. She's very nice, and specializes in diabetes and PCOS, so she really knows her stuff. I had already been taking Metformin to try to get my body to use insulin. I'm insulin-resistant, which means that I don't have the insulin that turns food into energy, so it just turns to fat. Yippy. Anyway, she maxed me out on the dosage, and I have noticed a few changes. I'm not sure that they're because of the dosage change, but they started shortly after that, so it seems likely. First, anyone who knows me knows that I'm constantly hot and radiate said heat to those around me. I'm not hot anymore. Second, my craving for sweets has dropped significantly. I'm hopeful that that means the increase is doing what it's supposed to. Anyway, there's more than you might have wanted to know.