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Posted on December 10, 2008 at 4:56 PM Comments comments (0)

More on Less Talking

Posted on November 10, 2008 at 5:37 PM Comments comments (0)

Over the last few days, I tried talking less. I was very deliberate about what I chose to say and not say. If it was just because I wanted to share a thought, I kept it to myself. If it was information that might interest the person I was with, I shared. After a while, I didn't even want to talk. Yes, absolutely amazing. I don't think my mother appreciated it, though. I usually call her right after church on the way home, but I didn't call her at all. She finally called me at 5 or 6, but I still didn't have much to say. Never thought I'd say that.

 

I have also been taking baby steps toward times of silence, so I've worked on not automatically turning on the TV. or music. This has given me time to practice my flute, which I haven't done in MONTHS; and I've had time to actually sit and read the Bible. That's definitely something that I need to do. How else can I know how to hear God's voice unless I'm familiar with his Word?

Vow of Silence?

Posted on November 8, 2008 at 12:59 PM Comments comments (0)

Yes, I'm thinking of taking a short vow of silence. Anyone who knows me knows that I generally have a lot to say about many things. I think part of that is just who I am, but it's also the result of being an only child (for 16 years) of a single parent. I seem to comment on whatever goes through my head. Many may not believe this, but I already do filter out 90% of what actually runs around in my head. It's true. Anyway, I was thinking about trying to be silent more often. No, seriously.  

 

What interests me may not interest those around me, so why do I feel the compulsion to share it? More importantly, if I'm always talking, how can I hear the still, quiet voice of God? Now, that's not to say that I'm not good listener (all of my friends know that I am), but that's when there's a specific reason to listen. If not, I tend to be the one talking or I'm concentrating on TV or music, etc. None of that leaves me open to hear something that God might be trying to share with me. I tried talking less the other day, and it was really difficult. I mentioned this to a friend, and he suggested starting off with a set amount of time. Obviously, I can't be totally silent; I answer phones for a living. However, I could do it on one of my days off, any talking outside of work, etc. I'm thinking I'll just start with 1-3 days. I welcome any feedback on this.

 

 

Verses that support less talking:

 

Pr 10:19 - When there are many words, sin is unavoidable, but the one who controls his lips is wise.

 

Pr 17:9 - Whoever conceals an offense promotes love, but whoever gossips about it separates friends.

 

Pr 17:27 - The intelligent person restrains his words, and one who keeps a cool head is a man of understanding.

 

Pr 17:28 - Even a fool is considered wise when he keeps silent, discerning, when he seals his lips.

 

Pr 13:3 - He who guards his lips guards his life, but he who speaks rashly will come to ruin.

 

Pr 12:18 - Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.

 

Jas 1:26 - If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless.  

 

That's not to say that we should never speak; just that we must be careful with our words. I'm going to try this as well as trying to have more time without outside stimulation. I'll be left alone with my thoughts (yes, I'm very scared about that) and hopefully with anything God wishes to share with me.

The Good & the Bad

Posted on September 19, 2008 at 10:46 AM Comments comments (0)

The kittens are progressing nicely. I have found homes for three of the four.

This has been a pretty tough week, but I'll start with the good news. I've lost more weight! The total is 18! I can't believe it. That's just because my body is starting to process insulin the way it's supposed to. I haven't changed diet or activity levels yet. God bless Dr. Rittenberry!

I'm realizing that I've been angry with my father for a long time (he died when I was 2 1/2). I've been angry because he made choices that ultimately led to his death and leaving me. The loss of a parent has dire consequences for the children who are left behind, even when they're adults. I haven't allowed myself to be in any relationships, terrified that they would leave, so why risk it? That's no way to live, so I'm working on breaking from that. Whew!

Men are so lucky!

Posted on May 12, 2008 at 11:27 PM Comments comments (0)

There are only certain times where I actually believe that (for most women, it's once a month). I know I'm getting close because I'm thoroughly pissed off and nothing has happened. I'm just sitting here at work like every other day, but every time someone speaks, I want to dig my nails into their throat! I am not a violent person, so I can only deduce that it is due to the ugly visitor. As if men don't have enough benefits in industrialized societies (I dare you to argue). They wouldn't last one day if they had to deal with emotions going crazy, cramps, etc. They'd be like Mr. Spock overloading on his human emotions: BOOM! A big explosion; World War 20, or whatever we're on now; lots of little crying baby boys in men's bodies. I might like to see that.